My Story 1

And indeed, everybody who does wrong hates the light and avoids it, to prevent his actions from being shown up;
but whoever does the truth comes out into the light, so that what he is doing may plainly appear as done in God.
John 3:20-21

This is " My Life" Story you have one too......

Grandma
I know why you did it?
I don't know how you could have.
You were living with a man & got pregnant by him.
For fear of losing him, if he found out, you sought out an abortion.
Your baby daughter died that day, in such an awful way.
Instead of losing him you had your unborn child killed.
How insecure you were, what a price to pay, for your selfishness.
Two & a half years later you were pregnant again by him.
Going to go for another abortion he's mother stepped in.
"If you do this again I'll tell him what you did & you'll lose him for sure" she said
So Grandma, you told him you were pregnant & he grinned. He was happy with this news.
You went on with this pregnancy & you delivered my Mom.
And if if you had had this second abortion I wouldn't be here too.
What a frightful thought, that I or my other family members, wouldn't have been born.
I'm sorry Grandma for what you did, we named her
Mary Elizabeth & we love you so.

Mary Jost
written 4-25-08

I found out today, 3-3-09, from my Mother, that the killing of my Aunt, Mary Elizabeth, by abortion, was done in 1920 at

Continuation of "MY STORY"

The Lord is my protector; He is my strong fortress. My God is my protection, and with Him I am safe. He protects me like a shield; He defends me and keeps me safe. He is my savior; He protects me and saves me from violence. I call to the Lord, and He saves me from my enemies. Praise the Lord!-- Samuel 22:2- 4

But the souls of the righteous are in the hand of God, and no torment will ever touch them. In the eyes of the foolish they seemed to have died, and their departure was thought to be an affliction and their going from us to be their destruction; but they are at peace . Wisdom 3:1-4

TWIN EMBRYOS

"JIMMY"

I WISH THAT YOU NEVER LEFT ME, OR I SHOULD SAY,

WERE TAKEN FROM ME.

I WAS ONLY STARTING TO GET TO KNOW YOU,

AND YOU WERE GONE.

I DIDN'T KNOW WHY, OR WHERE YOU HAD GONE,

I ONLY KNEW THAT YOU WERE NO LONGER WITH ME.

I FOUGHT FOR MY LIFE AS I FELT THE RUMBLE AND THE ROAR,

RETREATING UPWARDS AWAY FROM ALL THE HORROR.

I WAS SCARED, I DIDN'T KNOW WHAT WAS HAPPENING!

I ONLY KNEW THAT IN A MOMENT OF TIME-----

EVERYTHING HAD CHANGED!

ONCE I HAD SOMEBODY THERE AND THEN------

YOU WERE GONE!

"WHAT HAD HAPPENED", I THOUGHT TO MYSELF? WOULD I BE NEXT?

WOULD THE SAME FATE THAT HAPPENED TO MY TWIN BROTHER BE MY FATE TOO?

IF SO WHAT WOULD I DO? I'M NOT READY TO GO ANYWHERE!

I NEED MORE TIME IN YOUR WOMB!

PLEASE, PLEASE MOM, DON'T ABORT ME TOO!

Written 1992

With the losses of my family members by surgical abortion & the IUD & the Pill, which causes early abortions, I am grieving the losses of my family members.

Write to Mary @

P.O. Box 25513

Rochester, NY 14625

or email @:

marybailey@rochester.rr.com

Helpful Books for Wombtwin Survivors

Wombtwin Survivors

http://www.altheahayton.com/wombtwin/

http://wombtwin-survivors.blogspot.com/

http://jillybaby.wordpress.com/2008/04/24/could-i-be-a-wombtwin-survivor/

Untwinned: perspectives on the death of a twin before birth

Untwinned: perspectives on the death of a twin before birth

by A. M Hayton

http://www.atlasbooks.com/marktplc/00610.htm#Order

Remembering Our Home: Healing Hurts & Receiving Gifts from Conception to Birth

Authors: Sheila Fabricant Linn (Editor}, Fr.Matthew Linn, Fr.Dennis Linn, William Emerson

Priests for Life-

The Abortion of a Sibling- Abortion Survivors

http://www.priestsforlife.org/testimony/siblingaborted.htm

http://www.circleofprayer.com/abortion-survival-testimonies.html

Post Abortion Survivor Syndrome (PASS):

signs and symptoms.

http://www.thefreelibrary.com/Post+Abortion+Survivor+Syndrome+(PASS):+signs+and+symptoms-a0158397011

Conflicts and Symptoms of the Post-Abortion Survivor Syndrome

(A brief summary taken from Deeply Damaged)

Philip G. Ney, MD, FRCPC, MA, FRANZCP, RPsych

http://www.messengers2.com/articles/created_humanity/conflicts_and_symptoms.htm

MY LIFE WAS CHANGED FOREVER

ABORTION SURVIVORS

http://www.mehangcuugiup.org/html/QuestionOfTheDay/

AbortionSurvivors.htm

FAMILY MEMBERS LOST BY ABORTION

There is healing for you!!

YOU ARE NOT ALONE!!

Call Mary @ 585/218-4051 to talk or email her @ Marybailey@rochester.rr.com

Mourning Jimmy

It's one thing that a person is born and it is a part of your life.

It's another thing that a life existed but was never born.

How do I mourn my twin brother Jimmy who died in my mother's womb.

What do I do?

You were with me for such such a short time, living and growing, alive in the womb.

Then you were gone!

How do I mourn my twin brother who I never knew?

What should I do?

But cry, cry, cry........

3-30-09

Mary Jost

A Blob of Tissue?

He or she is not a blob of tissue but a baby girl or boy.

With fingers and toes and a heartbeat early on at 18 days after conception.

Developing rapidly an inch at a time.

Moving back and forth and up and down and all around.

It's home for nine months for the human baby inside. No worries or fears just fun all the time.

Talk to me Mom I can hear you and I can pick up on your feelings too.

I'm not a burden but a bundle of joy.

Just please leave me in your womb and let me be born.

Mary Jost

5/31/08

Continuation of "MY STORY"

'THAT DAY'

I wish it was safe in your womb, dear mother of mine.

Instead it was a place of horror and I don't know why!

I wanted to feel safe and secure but all I felt was fear.

The loss of my twin brother was so hard to bear and

Oh how he died caused me so much despair!

I was just getting to know him and we were having so much fun!

My twin brother was Aborted no chance to be born and

To have lost him that way was such a horror!

You just didn't want us Mom, though you thought that there was only one.

It was so sad that morning when you went for the abortion and

In the midst of the storm my twin brother was gone!

I laid there in secret shaking away.

Quivering for what I saw THAT DAY!

1-8-93

Continuation of "MY STORY"

Sharing Life With Jimmy

I can't help but think what life would have been like,

If you weren't Aborted but were born the same day as mine!

We would have been able to play games together and

You would have been with me when I was under the weather.

You would have helped me with my homework when I got stuck.

You would have helped me drive your brand new truck.

You would have picked out my boyfriends-- nothing but the best.

You would have helped me fight that cold and tell me to get enough rest.

You would have been my husband's Best Man on my wedding day and

Had given me a kiss before I ran away!!

You would have heard the announcement --there's a baby on it's way!

You would have been the Godfather of your niece or nephew on my baby's Baptismal day!

All in all I wish you were there to help me grow-up and to share.

I'm sorry that you were Aborted dear twin brother of mine, this is just a dream of yours and mine----

Of the things that could have been but were taken away because of the terrible event on that Abortion Day!!!

2-19-1993

Continuation of "MY STORY"

TOGETHER AGAIN

Oh my sweetest Jimmy in Heaven you are.

I wish that you didn’t die and left me alone from the start.

My sorrow is intense and I can’t be consoled.

I harbor the pain. I love you so!

Though my eyes could not see you, in my spirit I knew……..

What a terrible death that you went through.

To die from abortion dear twin brother of mine.

Makes my pain double in size.

The time I didn’t get to know you.

And the time that you died.

Oh I wish it never happened.

I miss you and love you and wish that you were here.

I know that I’ll see you in Heaven someday, my dear

For the first time we’ll be together to play and have fun.

You’ll meet me by the Pearly Gate and say

“Come on in dear twin sister of mine, I’ve been waiting for you

For such a long, long time”!

5-6-92

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'SOMEDAY’

My brother is fine,

he is with the Lord now.

Never to suffer again,

never to be torn apart.

Never to be rejected,

never to be unloved.

The secret is unleashed,

for my brother,

was aborted and not born.

I feel you Jimmy, in my heart,

and there you will be

until I see you again,

with the Lord.

Where we both will be happy

for ever more.

Love, your twin sister,

Mary

Written 2-20-10

Continuation of "MY STORY"

WHY?

Oh, Daddy how I cry at night?

Innocent & pure a child of six.

Ready to make my first Holy Communion & become one with Christ.

Sleeping with one eye open & one eye closed.

Why did you creep in my bedroom at night?

The scars that you left me, the problems & the pain.

Why Daddy did you cross the line?

Where were you Mommy? Why didn't you help me?

Did you have no voice or were you afraid of losing the house?

The silence was so deadly the betrayal was so wrong.

My father was a molester and my mother was a mouse.

Mary Jost

written 6-15-2007

Fathers, do not provoke your children, so they may not become discouraged.

Colossians 3:21

Continuation of "MY STORY"

"Knife in my Back"

My older sister hated me, this I knew.

She hung around a nasty girl named Sue.

One day I was leaving my home EC class & going into the hall.

When I overheard the two of them talking & I didn’t like what was being said.

They were planning to stick a knife in my back.

I ran back into the room to tell my teacher for the help that I needed.

She didn’t believe me, I couldn’t believe my ears.

“Oh don’t worry, I think they’re only kidding, my dear”.

“Oh brother” I said & ran out of the room.

I went home to tell my mother & the same thing went down.

No one would believe that these two girls would do what they said.

Let’s just say that I looked behind me wherever I went.

Mary Jost

writen 3-4-08

Continuation of "MY STORY"

KEN JOHNSON

You sat in front to me in Social Studies.

I gave you gum after lunch.

I had a crush on you & you knew it.

Your hair was dark & your eyes were brown.

You were tall & cute & I liked you.

I worked at the Johnson House, in Churchville, as a waitress in ’68.

One night, after work, you asked me out & I said ‘yes’.

I got into your car & we drove & we drove & ended up in a field with no one around.

You stopped the car then all of a sudden you were on top of me, in the front of the car.

I couldn’t breathe for you were heavy on me & my neck was tilted back.

You then said “I want to rape you” I could hardly believe my ears.

I said a prayer that this would not happen here.

I don’t know what happened maybe God heard my prayer.

You got off of me and out of the fields we went.

You took me back to the restaurant to get my car & I got out of there.

I look back on this now & how young & naïve I was.

I should have reported you for attempted rape & you should have gone to jail..

I don’t know where you are or what your life is like. Don’t think that you got away with this because you didn’t.

We’ll all have to answer for what we have done someday.

I have forgiven you for the effects on my life.

Imagine, this was the guy I liked & this was our first date?

Today they call it DATE RAPE.

Mary Jost

3-4-08

Continuation of "MY STORY"

"UP THE STAIRS"

I was eighteen, just out of school.

Working, as a waitress, at the Johnson House in Churchville back in 68.

Happy go lucky was me at this time.

Never prepared to face the horror that this night would bring.

I stated one day “I wonder what the upstairs looks like" of this once Hotel now Restaurant, to the bus boys in the kitchen.

"Come on we'll show you after everyone leaves" they replied.

The work in the kitchen was done and it was late, now it's the time for our expedition.

As we climbed up the stairs and entered I noticed that I was the only one walking down the hall.

As the pit of my stomach started to hurt, I knew it was too late.

As I tried to get away only to fail, I couldn't scream as the knife was on me, I must have turned pale.

The dirty deed wasn't done completely for the Manager came up and went to his apartment across the hall, as they all ran away.

I couldn't get help from the Manager, you see, for it was my fault that I went UP THE STAIRS.

Mary Jost

Written in 2007

PLEASE GIVE YOUR CHILDREN BOUNDARIES, ESPECIALLY GIRLS. TEACH THEM WELL NOT TO TRUST EVERYONE. WHEN THEY ARE YOUNG THEY THINK THAT EVERYONE IS OKAY, THIS IS NOT TRUE. TEACH THEM WELL FOR THEY BELONG TO YOU,ENTRUSTED BY GOD.

THE 18 YEAR OLD MAKES DECISIONS THAT THE 35 YEAR OLD HAS TO LIVE WITH.

Continuation of "MY STORY"

YOU THREE

You thought that you were being funny to take advantage of a girl.

To rape her in a hospital, on the second floor, was such a thrill.

The three of you weren’t trembling just the victim through & through.

The one who watched the door, what kind of person were you?

What would make three young men commit such a crime? How could you be so cruel?

My life changed that very day, how about you?

Are you all walking around still laughing of what you did to me?

Or are you living in a prison in your mind of the evil that you did?

I don’t know about your lives, I only know about my life & the pain & misery.

I’m not in a prison in my mind any longer but set free by God’s healing love, by forgiving you three.

You might have raped me years ago & don’t remember the event but I can tell you this--- one of you is a father of twins.

A boy & girl I think. They are in Heaven, Jessica & Aaron, for I miscarried my babies at 6 weeks.

For you thought that day it was fun to rape a virgin at Strong Memorial Hospital back in 1971.

I pray that you three have repented for what you did to me.

For someday you will stand before God & US THREE!

Mary (Yurkunas) Jost

5/21/2007

If you have been a victim of a sexual crime know that it wasn't your fault.

These three guys were never caught but God saw who they were. What makes the story sadder was the doctor (Barbara Bates) that came in the room after the rape asked me no questions. I was in shock. I went home t& told my mother & she asked me no questions about what just happened. The next day I told my nursing instructor what happened & she asked me no questions & just said to me, "it's done it's over & there is nothing that you can do about it", so I didn't. I just buried it until years later when I remembered it. Then I had to deal with it.

These three women that I trusted DID NOTHING TO HELP ME!!!!

The only thing worst than rape is Betrayal................

JAAR- JUSTICE AGAINST ABUSE & RAPE

YOU ARE NOT ALONE YOU JUST FEEL ALONE

If you want to talk just e-mail me at:

marybailey@rochester.rr.com

Furthermore, the anguish and psychic suffering caused by rape and incest has been treated quite effectively. Professor Stephen Krason points out that…

"Psychological studies have shown that, when given the proper support, most pregnant rape victims progressively change their attitudes about their unborn child from something repulsive to someone who is innocent and uniquely worthwhile."

For if the unborn is fully human, then we must weigh the relieving of the woman's mental suffering against the right-to-life of an innocent human being. And homicide of another is never justified to relieve one of emotional distress.

The baby should not die for the sin of the father.

Do Rape Victims Really Need Abortions? Background and information.

http://realchoice.0catch.com/library/weekly/aa071301a.htm

Fortress International

P.O. Box 7352

Springfield, IL 62791

217-529-9545

Help for women with rape or incest pregnancies

Jennifer

Conceived through rape : Jennifer Bowman

The Forgotten Victims of Rape
"Don't equate us to the act that brought us here
http://www.truthtv.org/abortion/childs-view/conceived-through-rape/jennifer/

http://www.ithappenedtoalexa.org/#

Life After Assault League

1336 West Lindberg St.

Appleton, WI 54914

1-414-739-4489

Messengers2.com

http://www.messengers2.com/

Feminist for Life

http://www.feministsforlife.org/taf/1998/fall/Fall98.pdf

Stigmatized

http://www.stigmatized.org/

For Rape Victims - Sexual Assault Help

Silent No More - Sexual Assault Crisis & Support Center provides free, confidential services.

http://www.silentnomore.org/

The National Sexual Violence Resource Center (NSVRC) is a comprehensive collection and distribution center for information, research and emerging policy on sexual violence intervention and prevention. The NSVRC provides an extensive on-line library and customized technical assistance, as well as, coordinates National Sexual Assault Awareness Month initiatives.

http://www.nsvrc.org/

The Joint Task Force for Sexual Assault Prevention and Response (JTF-SAPR) serves as the single point of accountability for Department of Defense (DoD) sexual assault policy

http://www.sapr.mil/

This is Rebecca's Story

http://www.rebeccakiessling.com/

http://www.feministsforlife.org/Q&A/Q2.htm

ived.In.Rape.Shares.ProLife.Views-2670715.shtml?sourcedomain=www.cm-life.com&MIIHost=media.collegepublisher.com

Rape Victim's Book Recounts Added Horror of Abortion After Sexual Abuse

http://webmaila.netzero.net/webmail/new/26

"DEAR SARA"

Dear Sara, "Little Princess"

(the meaning of your name),

How fitting you should have it-

Too soon your glory came.

Your little heart was broken

When Mommy let you go,

But angel, please remember

She really didn’t know.

Some said it wasn’t beating,

Your tiny little heart,

And so it didn’t matter

They tore you all apart.

They said you couldn’t feel it.

How Satan can deceive!

The agony you suffered

So many disbelieve.

No grave to mark your passing,

And few to mourn or pray,

But Grandma will remember

That awful, tragic day.

My arms will never hold you.

My rocking chair is still.

But Grandma’s heart is full of love

That death can never kill.

Sweet Angel pray for Mommy

And pray for Daddy too,

And say a prayer for Grandma

And I will pray for you.

And you and I together

Will pray for all your friend

Who never had a birthday!

We’ll pray abortion ends!

Love,

Grandma

Written by Mary Kathryn Johnson

Prescott Valley, AZ

"A VOICE OF LOVE"

Oh sweet little baby hidden with no where to hide.

The last thing that you hear is a voice calling from outside.

“We can help you”, “You don’t have to do this” says the sidewalk counselor to your Mom.

You rejoice to hear an encouraging voice of Hope.

Knowing that if she doesn’t heed this Truth and turn away.

You will die, at this abortion mill, this very day.

As you enter Heaven, if your Mother didn’t turn away, remember this

That for a little while you were LOVED.

Mary Jost

1995

Continuation of "MY STORY"

Dass

You Saw A Wounded Girl

A Highland Hospital doctor who molested his patient should go to jail !!

I wonder, to this day, why you weren’t arrested for your inappropriate actions.

I reported you to the AMA and they called you in.

They presented to you the complaints I had made.

When they called me they said “It’s over, you can get on with your life”.

“If he does this again he will lose his license for sure”

No one has ever come forward, this was over 30 years ago.

Was I the only one this Indian surgeon was inappropriate with?

I doubt this very much.

But I have forgiven you.

I pray that you have repented for what you have done.

What you say to the Lord someday is between you and Him.

Whatever you have done in the dark will come to the light.

Don't think that you got away with anything because that's not true.

Your final judgement is up to you.

Mary (Yurkunas) Jost

8-20-2007

For there is nothing hidden that will not become

visible, and nothing secret that will not be known and come to light.

Luke 8:17

Continuation of "MY STORY"

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The pain was too great!!The surgeries were too often.The medications didn't work.The doctor said with a laugh "go have sex with anyone,Some guy on the street will do"If you get pregnant the endometriosis will then go away.I said "no".I just want this pain to go away!He said "I can't put a zipper in you".Years went by and still no relief.A hysterectomy at 28What could I do?
Mary Jost2007 How sad that the surgery didn't even take the pain away.

Continuation of "MY STORY"

wortman

The day that you grabbed me in the hall of Highland Hospital.

You were an attending doctor and I a nurse.

I was caught off guard as I leaped into the air as I was twisted as I turned.

I returned to the opposite side of the hall.

"You hurt my back", I exclaimed as you turned around and glared.

My life has never been the same since then.

The pain as I walk, sit and stand has been treated unsuccessfully since 1978.

You don't care how you treat people never taking responsibility for your action that ended my nursing career.

Maybe someday for I'm praying for you.

Not so much for what you did to me but for you what you're doing now.

For the thousands of babies that you've murdered since 1986.

For the lives that you take, by abortion, and the woman that you hurt.

For someday you'll have to look at us all in the eye and take responsibility for your crimes.

God have mercy on you!!

For I started to protest you back in 86.

To protest ,as we stood at your office, to speak to the girls. To save the babies from the evil that you do.

Many babies were saved for the girls got away. Twenty one years later you're still doing what you do.

Just know that people are praying for you!

Mary (Melfi) Jost

2007

SLAIN BY CHOICE

http://www.mttu.com/Slain-1.htm

Glenda Jean Fox 17 White 1/19/89 Rochester, NY Morris Wortman Bernadette Technical, 3/1 990

Rochester NOW

http://rochesternow.org/Wortmans.html

http://rochesternow.org/Wortmans2.html

Dr. Morris Wortman's Office November 17, 2001

What the protestors yell

November 17 was the first time anti-abortion protestors er erected these two very large banners. The banners face Clinton Ave.

A pair of hands holding a baby with R.I.P. above it (bottom right of picture). The sign on the left reads: "Women Killed by Legal Abortion." The pink flags read: "Abortion kills girls" with a picture of a baby's face. The blue flags read: "Abortion kills boys" with a picture of a cross.

Two of the regular Saturday protestors. These signs are what they typically carry on Saturday mornings. Note: We have distorted the face of the protestor so she is not recognizable. It is not our intention to single out individual protestors but instead to illustrate what women encounter when coming to Dr. Wortman's office.

Dr. Morris Wortman's Office November 17, 2001

What the protestors yell

Note the white crosses by the curb. (We have distorted the face of the protestor in this photograph so she is not recognizable.)

This sign faces the parking lot and obviously is intended for Dr. Wortman's staff. It reads: "Employees Protect Yourselves" and gives a web site address: ClinicWorker.com. The sign then lists items to report: Sexual Harassment, Income Tax Evasion, Medicaid Fraud, and Insurance Fraud An anti-choice protestor photographs the Pro-Choice Escort who is taking pictures of the banners. It is common for anti-choice protestors to photograph or videotape staff and escorts. The protestors also have taken pictures of patients as well as the license plates of cars coming into the parking lot. There was an implied threat that these pictures may be sent to a web site created by Neal Horsley (who created the hideous Nuremberg Files web site). Pictures of people going to clinics that provide abortions are posted on this site.

A June 4, 2001 Rochester Democrat and Chronicle story said this about Mary Melfi, a regular Saturday morning anti-abortion protestor:

"Melfi said she hadn't decided whether to submit the Rochester pictures to Horsley, who recently sent out an e-mail requesting photographs for his site, which also includes images of aborted fetuses."

"Stop judging by appearances, but judge justly." John 7:24

Operation Save America

http://www.operationsaveamerica.org/streets/ny/reports-from-rochester.htm

Continuation of "MY Story"

Nightmares Do Come True

How could I be so unlucky in love?

I picked two that were duds!

The first betrayed me by wanting another...

Trying to kick me out of the apartment so she could live there.

Threatening, harassing and traumatizing me.

The horrors went on, too hard to share.

Then a good priest said “God doesn't want you abused"

"Get out of there"!

So I stayed with my friend & then went to Florida for a couple of years.

Divorced and annulled now I am free!!!

Years later I thought that I found Mr. Right

And then I said my I do's

Only to find out that history repeats itself.

Oh Lord! How could this happen again?

This man was in love with his Valtorta books, that aren't true.

A story not a fact that he sells to the world.

He made a store in one of the rooms & locked the door and took the key.

His behavior was bizarre when I said "that I could get into the shipping room".

So he called the police & made out a report. The police told him that it was my house too.

"There's the door" he would say.

I guess he wanted to be alone with his books.

So he divorced me & I got Church annulled.

One was a girl and one was his books.

I want a guy that only wants me.

So I started a new life with Godfree (my cat).

Being alone isn't so bad.

I'm doing so much better without these two !!!

I have forgiven them both, I have to, in order to please God & to heal & go on with my life. You can forgive those who have hurt you too. Pray, Pray & Pray some more. God will guide you & bless you. Just Let Go & Let God. Give your pain to the Lord, he will take it.

2007

GOD'S GRACE GOT ME THROUGH

Continuation of "MY STORY"

CURSES OF ABUSE

I wish that I could eat

I wish that I could sleep

I wish that I could think

I wish that I could concentrate

I wish that I could read

I wish that I could talk

I wish that I could walk

I wish that I could cry

I wish that I could feel

I wish that I could pray

Without the Pain, the PAIN, the PAIN

It NEVER goes away

Once it entered my domain.

Mary Jost

9-2007

Continuation of "MY STORY"

THE PAIN

Who are you? What are you? Why are you here?

I know that you've been with me for a very long time.

All my life, that's 57 years.

The ripping, the tearing, the burning, the shaking inside.

Where did you come from who invited you in?

The abdomen hurts. Is someone living inside?

A heavy ball with claws turning around & around in me.

No real relief or maybe a second when I keep very busy or wish for Heaven.

I offer it up but frankly my Lord.

I wish that you could take it & get it out of my core.

Is this from abuse from such an early age?

Or from my mother's womb, I don't really know.

The doctors the surgeries nothing has helped & nobody knows what to do.

This I know that you dear Lord know the root of the pain.

It's just you & the Father & Holy Ghost.

I'll keep praying for the grace that you will answer me soon.

Mary Jost

Fibromyalgia & Chronic Fatigue

it hurts

it burns

it's no fun

i guess this is the outcome?

Mary Jost 9-2007

Continuation of "MY STORY"

ROSES IN THE PEW

We all want a sign from God, at least some of do. I believe that nothing is by chance but all in God's Divine Providence. He is God & is in control of everything, even though at times we think that we are. Not so,not so. Every year we as Catholics celebrate St.Teresa’s feast day on Oct.1st & some Catholics start nine days before her feast day to say a Novena, which is nine days of prayer before a feast day. In St. Teresa’s case the person is promised a rose at the end of the Novena. Maybe not the same day but soon after. Well I said my Novena but no rose. (Though you're not suppose to say the Novena just for the rose). I waited & waited & started to think that St.Teresa had forgotten me (it's called self-pity). I should know better because everything is in God's perfect timing. I went Friday Oct. 12th. at The Church of the Holy Spirit for a healing Mass given by Fr. Mc Alear, a priest that has been given the gift of healing. I wanted to sit up front because I wanted to be one of the first ones prayed over, after Mass & then go home because I was tired from a busy week with talks given by Randall Terry, the Pro-Life icon who was invited by Tucker & I. So I had a lot to do this week & was really exhausted. I entered the Church & went up front where I got a seat, wondering why three rows were vacant in front of me. Then as I sat there I realized that I was sitting in a Reserved Row & got up & went into the aisle & looked around for a seat. Then I saw a young woman with long blonde hair flagging me over to her row where I entered & sat down. I looked over & said "thank you" to which she nodded. The Mass was beautiful & then it was time for Holy Communion. I went up the aisle & received the Lord & was going back to my seat. As I entered the pew I noticed a bouquet of roses on the seat & then I looked closer & saw that in the roses there was a picture of a beautiful smiling baby. I started to cry & couldn't stop. I only had one Kleenex & needed more. The tears just rushed down my face. I know why it took so long for Jesus & St. Teresa to give me the rose because the time was now. It represented that my brother was okay & was happy in Heaven & I should be at peace. I thought that I was going to keep crying but Father brought out the Blessed Sacrament & I calmed down. I was prayed over & anointed with blessed oil & then gently fell backwards onto the floor & rested in the Holy Spirit for a few minutes. I think the Lord spoke to my heart & wanted me to know that the roses were for me too because He was glad the I was born. What a double healing with the bouquet of roses. I noticed the couple that had the bouquet in the pew went up to the altar for prayer & they handed the bouquet of roses to a woman to which she put them in front of the Blessed Sacrament on the altar, how touching. Father Mc Alear prayed over them for their loss of their beautiful baby to which was used to heal me. Little does the Mom & Dad know what happened this night & how they were used to bring healing to another. Thank you Jesus, Mary

Mary Jost

10/12/07

They Are In Peace

Oh how the children suffer before they are taken home to Heaven.

Once the suffering is over they are in the arms of the Lord.

First they go to Mary and she wipes them clean from their blood.

She rocks them in her lap and holds them close to her heart.

She speaks sweet words to them before she takes them to Jesus.

How the aborted babies suffered as they were being ripped apart.

No one can ever hurt them again for they are now in His Heart.

Mary Jost

1-18-08

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‘Life is Short’

I thought we were friends for life.

We went through so much together.

Fighting the good fight, on the streets.

Suffering the anguish of our ministry.

What went wrong? Did I share too much?

Or did you judge me too harshly.

No one is perfect and I made a lot of mistakes but

To take your friendship away was too much to bear.

The pain was great and the sorrow was too.

Why couldn’t you have been my friend and not my judge?

What I was going though, with my so-called marriage, was pretty tough.

This break up of our friendship hurt you too.

But that was your choice, not mine, and I have forgiven you.

I’ll always remember you and pray for your soul.

The pain has gone now, it doesn’t hurt anymore.

I guess what they say about “time heals all things’ is right.

I know that you are happy now, in the next life, with Jesus and Mary.

Hopefully someday I’ll see you and we will be friends in Heaven again.

Mary Jost

2-28-08

Parents Can’t Abuse their Children

Why would no one say, I’m sorry that your parents have treated you so badly?

Why is there no sympathy for the wounded person?

Why is there no understanding for those who have been hurt?

Why because it’s easier to get in touch with the ones that have done the hurting? How twisted.

Like Fr. S. said “your Mother was not a good Mother”. Thank you Fr. S. for saying the Truth.

It’s okay to say it, otherwise you’re saying that all kinds of abuse, cover-up, & denial is okay & why would anyone say that unless they are in denial too.

The 4th. Commandment says to” Honor thy Father & Mother”, & this means for parents to care for their children. "Fathers, do not provoke your children, lest they become discouraged." Colossians 3:21.

Remember this!!!!

Mary Jost

written 2008

And indeed, everybody who does wrong hates the light and avoids it, to prevent his actions from being shown up;
but whoever does the truth comes out into the light, so that what he is doing may plainly appear as done in God.
John 3:20-21

This is " My Life" Story you have one too......

Grandma
I know why you did it?
I don't know how you could have.
You were living with a man & got pregnant by him.
For fear of losing him, if he found out, you sought out an abortion.
Your baby daughter died that day, in such an awful way.
Instead of losing him you had your unborn child killed.
How insecure you were, what a price to pay, for your selfishness.
Two & a half years later you were pregnant again by him.
Going to go for another abortion he's mother stepped in.
"If you do this again I'll tell him what you did & you'll lose him for sure" she said
So Grandma, you told him you were pregnant & he grinned. He was happy with this news.
You went on with this pregnancy & you delivered my Mom.
And if if you had had this second abortion I wouldn't be here too.
What a frightful thought, that I or my other family members, wouldn't have been born.
I'm sorry Grandma for what you did, we named her
Mary Elizabeth & we love you so.

Mary Jost
written 4-25-08

I found out today, 3-3-09, from my Mother, that the killing of my Aunt, Mary Elizabeth, by abortion, was done in 1920 at

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The Lord is my protector; He is my strong fortress. My God is my protection, and with Him I am safe. He protects me like a shield; He defends me and keeps me safe. He is my savior; He protects me and saves me from violence. I call to the Lord, and He saves me from my enemies. Praise the Lord!-- Samuel 22:2- 4

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